If I can describe 2014 in one word, it’s “hustle.” Ryan and I were reflecting on this past year and came to the conclusion that we just couldn’t take a break. It’s not necessarily a bad thing. We went through the painful experience of apartment searching in New York, which was emotionally, physically, and financially draining. Ryan launched his own business and we’ve been adjusting to spending much more time together since we both work from home. And we’ve spent much of this year hosting visitors almost every month, traveling, and carving out new paths for our lives.
I’ve also been dealing with sick cats, with no real understanding of what’s making them ill. Fortunately, it doesn’t seem life-threatening, just uncomfortable. But this whole experience has been crushing and I feel like the worst cat mom. No matter how much money we spend or how many tests we run on them, nothing seems to be conclusive. There are bouts of a few weeks where they both seem well, then it starts up again. I worry that it’s environmental, since it started when we moved into this apartment, but my vet seems to think that’s highly unlikely. Regardless, this has never been more true for me.
Each New Year, I have a blog tradition of looking back at my old New Year’s posts and looking at how much I’ve done. It’s overwhelming a bit, since so much has changed. Despite feeling stuck in the mud all of the time, each year I’ve grown and moved forward immensely. So much so, that I hardly seem to recognize who I was just a few years prior.
Recap of Last Year’s Resolutions:
- Learn a new language – I did take a Spanish class and was using Duolingo with some regularity, but that’s slowed down and I’m nowhere close to proficient.
- Run a half-marathon, hopefully two. – Yep, only one, in February.
- Visit a New England state I’ve never been to. – Nope. Maybe this year?
- Go to the beach (specifically in NYC). Done. It was gross.
- Ride horses again. – Yes, somewhat. I rode five or six times this year, which was way more than 2013. Still, I wish I could do it every day, but it’s impractical in NYC.
- Celebrate holidays – Slightly better, not a 100% effort. We were asleep by midnight on NYE (I know, we’re such grandparents!). But we were really enthusiastic about Thanksgiving and Christmas. We even got a tree!
- Document more – on the blog, my private journal, instagram, and in my food/exercise journal on myfitnesspal. – I did blog much more than I did in 2013. I also did much better on instagram, joined facebook, and have been mostly consistent on MyFitnessPal. Still working on the personal journaling part.
- Practice kindness. – Yes.
In 2014 I:
- Moved in with Ryan into a wonderful apartment in Brooklyn.
- Struggled more with money than ever. This new apartment is pricey.
- Took a fashion class at the Fashion Institute of Technology and loved it.
- Took a few brainery classes and had a ton of fun: Doomsday Cults, Improv for Professionals, and the Dip Candle Workshop.
- Gained more weight than I anticipated.
- Ran/walked 197 miles, which is down more than 50 miles from the previous year and more than 100 from my peak.
- Started taking really long walks just for fun.
- Learned how to do a real push up and can now do approximately 30 or so.
- Went skiing (and miserably failed!).
- Learned how to loom knit and found my yarn-calling. I knit a hat!
- Visited the MET, Natural History Museum, and the Intrepid (twice!)
- Saw the following on and off-Broadway Shows: Cabaret (dream come true!), Violet, A Dolls House, Murder for Two, and possibly a few more I can’t remember
- Saw the stunning Christmas lights on 5th Avenue. It was extraordinary.
- Had some really wonderful times with friends. I love you guys!
- Came out of a bad fog and fell more in love with so many things.
- Redesigned my blog (thanks Jaime!) and started guest blogging (thanks Becca!).
Top Blog Posts this Year:
- Deer String Art
- How to Revitalize Your Couch Cushions (from 2011, still super popular)
- The Best Vegan Cheesecake
- DIY Garment Rack
- Whole Wheat Blueberry Pancakes (the best ever!)
- Quick and Easy Vegan Fudge
- Geometric Pegboard Tutorial
I’m really struggling with ideas for this year, which worries me. I like to have goals, so I may update this as I think of more. I like to add a mix of achievable and fun goals with more challenging ones.
- Visit 5 NYC Parks I haven’t been to
- Do some hiking
- Visit more museums
- Write more. I’m starting slow and shooting for just two solid short stories.
- Go ice skating.
- Run another half-marathon. I’m not sure I want to do an actual race, but running 13.1 miles will be enough for me. I’d like to do a few smaller races though.
- Get some plants. This house is really lacking greenery.
- Travel – a lot of my early years with Ryan were spent exploring. Now that we are car-less, it makes traveling much harder. I really need to get back in touch with the adventurer that I once was.
The State of Other Things
I’m a deeply motivated person and am always looking toward the future. This constant pushing toward major life changes is stressful and when these events don’t come to fruition fast enough, I feel like a failure.
An example of this is my desire to go back to school. I’ve been struggling with this a lot this year. I’ve been talking about completing a Master’s degree for years. So long, in fact, that my GRE scores are about to expire (and I am not taking the GRE again). But the timing never seems right. First, I was in Florida and knew that I wanted to move, so I put it off. Now, I know I’ll be in New York for a few years, but am having a harder time deciding which school and route will be right for me. Should I go to a more prestigious school and follow an academic path? If I choose this path, it will mostly be the “follow your heart” route. My career prospects will be lackluster in terms of salary, but I might be able to justify it as “do what you love.” I’d only be pursuing this because I truly love academia. Or should I pick the non-academic/business route and do a professional studies Master’s with the final outcome being a solid career? In considering all of these, I still have to face the obscene amount of money I’d have to spend and how I’m going to juggle a full-time job with pursuing an education and it makes me hesitant to make any decision at all.
Anyway, the subject of education is a conversation for 2015.
So back to the hustle. I try to remember that I need to have the right set up to embark on any major life change and, let’s be frank, the past two years have, in essence, been nothing but major life changes. I’ve moved more time in the past two years than I have in the previous four. I ditched my car, moved to the biggest city in the states, co-habitated with my long-time love, and now, finally, have slowly started to fall into a nice groove with my life.
And even though I can say that things are calming down, I’m still working hard every day. To keep from overwhelming myself, I’ve cut my life into a few parts that I’m trying to focus on:
- My health – I let this slack earlier this year, but am reeling this in. I’m back to running and eating much healthier. Our new neighborhood has tons of Seamless choices and it was just too easy to eat like crap.
- My career – This has had a huge impact on my life this year and I’m trying to figure it out.
- My relationship – Ryan and I were both really career-heavy this year and it took away from the relationship section of our lives. But we’ve regrouped and are finishing out the year solid and still very happy and in love.
- Personal Development – It rarely seems to suffer, no matter what. I’m always taking classes, learning, creating, experiencing and exploring. I love this about me. The harder my life gets, the more I seem to reach out and find new things to do and learn.
- My blog – When I have a good handle on the rest of the things in my life, my blog thrives. When the rest of the things in my life lose structure, my blog sadly suffers.
I know this was a long post, but that’s where I’m at. I’m honestly looking forward to this next year. I think some of the work I’ve put in last year will start to pay off this year.
I hope everyone has a wonderful New Year! Best wishes to all of my fantastic blog readers. Thanks for staying with me through everything.
And now I’d like to know, where are you at in your life? Do you have any resolutions? Is there anything you’d like to see more of on the blog?
PS. Since now is the time for committing to nutrition and health, you can follow me on MyFitnessPal. My username is monstercats.