The past few months have been quite a struggle. I’ve been dealing with pesky medical issues and snags in my relationships, stress at my job and less than average performance with my personal goals. All the while, I’ve been trying to make a tough life decision.
I’ve been riding horses for nine months now. I’m finally getting up to a canter – a movement that scares me. It’s a different pace with a faster rhythm and makes me feel like I am no longer the one in control. The horse’s body bolts forward thrusting you back. Its breathing changes, the hooves pound loudly and quickly and your whole body sways, struggling to stay on. And when this happens, I desperately want to pull on the reins. I want so badly to pull back.
My trainer yells, “Let her go! Just let her go!” And I just let the horse go. And for a few seconds, our bodies are moving in sync and beautifully fast and it’s simply exhilarating. I forget about the fear. I’m just cantering.
Like the natural rhythm of the canter, my life is trying to move forward, and I’ve been pulling on the reins for too long.
And it seems everything is falling into place and things feel right again. My life is moving forward. With monumental happiness, I’m ready to share my exciting news.
I’m moving to New York City! Ryan and I bought our one-way tickets. We depart January 15.
Letting this settle in feels completely right. My cheeks hurt, I was smiling so much today as I shared my news with my coworkers.
And my life is moving forward in other ways. I just bought my first DSLR camera, which takes fantastic photos (for the blog!), I’m learning photoshop, and my coding skills are slowly improving.
I have my first horse show this Saturday! I can’t wait. I’m only competing in a walk/trot, but still. It’s so much fun.
And I’m so ready for this holiday season. This week Ryan and I put up our Christmas lights.
And Watson wanted so badly to help.
And this weekend, we ran in the Jingle Bell Run, which is my all-time favorite.
Everyone runs with a jingle bell on their shoe. I wore a light-up santa hat and a light up necklace.
And Adrienne joined us, to celebrate her one year running anniversary! I’m so proud of her.
I’ve got a lot of great crafts planned for this Holiday season. I can’t wait to start sharing them.
I’ll also be documenting how I plan to move to New York. Right now, I’m just concentrating on what (craft supplies) I’m taking with me. We’re getting rid of most everything, and basically only taking what can fit in our suit cases on the plane. It’s hard to part with stuff, but I’m excited for a fresh start. I also got confirmation today that I’ll have a place to live when I get to NY. I’ll be staying with one of my best friends. And I found out I will be able to keep my job! Temporarily. They’re letting me work remotely for a few months. Now, all I have to do is find a stable.